You don’t really know what you’ve got till it’s gone.. Common truth – everybody knows that, but no one really remembers. I was reminded today – again. Duh..
People really should not dwell on things, but this was not just a random thing. My mom gave me a necklace as a present for my high school graduation (looong time ago) and it became something very dear and precious to me. I wore it all day every day, never taking it off.
I got a massage yesterday and the lady wanted me to take my necklace off as well. Then she was done, I felt great, had dinner and went to sleep. No big deal.
At 3am I suddenly woke up in terror with only one thought in my mind – I forgot the necklace there. Touched my neck and it really wasn’t there, as if I already didn’t know. My first urge was to go back to the massage place immediately. Then I realized it’s only after 3am and it will probably make no sense (while hearing a very loud club music from outside).
So what to do now? Sleep? I was too nervous for that. So I came up with 4 scenarios of what could have happened to my necklace:
1. It’s still there (the most positive one)
2. It’s still there but it might have fallen somewhere behind a furniture during cleaning
3. The cleaning lady found it and put it at the reception
4. The cleaning lady found it and took it
I think I fell asleep during this overthinking and woke up at 7 (BTW, funny overthinking video in here).
After breakfast, before 8, I hurried to the massage place (even though I knew they officially open at 10, but still, maybe someone will be there already!). Well, nobody was, surprisingly..
At 9 I tried again. With same result. But at 9:40 I got lucky! Cleaning lady was there😎 I explained that I forgot my necklace over there and she let me in. And I found the necklace. At the exact same spot. And was out in 30s. And that’s the happy ending of my story🙄
I was very relieved that it ended up like that but honestly.. Deep down I was expecting it and was very calm. Just my brain wouldn’t stop thinking.
I wish that brain of mine would stop creating scenarios, imaginary situations and imaginary solutions for a while. What an easy life I would have!
Anyway, the main thought? Don’t take anything for granted. You might have it one second but lose it the other, without even realizing. It hurts less when it’s “only” a thing (even a precious one, but you can still buy a new one) and not a dear person. You can’t buy a person. You can’t persuade them to stay if they don’t want to or make them come back from the dead. So just appreciate every second you have with them, people!
Then there us this thing I don’t quite understand. How come it’s possible to miss something you never had? And I don’t mean an urge to posses things, but a real emptiness inside you, like something very precious has been taken away from you, although you never really had it, not even dreamed of it.
But then one day, it suddenly appeared in front of you, just for a minute and the feeling of completeness was so strong that it overwhelmed you. And then it was gone again. Paths crossed and then parted. What was it? Was it real? Will it ever happen again? Why does it hurt then? Destiny? Past life? Lesson to be learned? Soulmate? Imagination? Nothing at all? Overthinking all over again?
If only we could see the reason behind every situation we encounter. But then it would be no fun.
And life should be fun, right? 😉